When I’m in silence I start thinking… I long for a noise to break the silence. I lay there and think of all the memories, all the mean words, all the kisses, and all the hugs. I starts to hurt. I cry and pray and can’t stop thinking.
Then what I’m doing hit me… I’m breaking down. I’m not being strong. I then think “pull yourself together!” I wipe my face and just do what he told me to do when I cried any other time.
“Breathe deep and slow. Think of your happy place. Just breathe it’s okay!” The thought of him saying that comforts me in the silence and in the mourning.
So when you’re missing that person you’ve lost “breathe deep and slow. Think of you’re happy place. Just breathe it’s okay!”
It’s okay to not be strong all the time. But just down break and don’t be in the silence to long your mind will start to wander. So just breathe it’s okay!